Healing Transformations Therapy

28 May 2009, Thursday, I had a healing transformations therapy session with Ellen Bok. The session lasted about 4 hours. Healing transformations therapy is about healing the mind, body and spirit, and the healing takes place at the cellular level.

Before my session with Ellen, she had sent me an email requesting for information pertaining to the following :

- history of my current state of health and previous disease
- overview and description of my upbringing, relationships with my family members, partners, friends and other important people in my life, past and current
- my behavioural patterns and characteristics, as in, how I see myself and how someone who knows me well would describe me
- past experiences which I may still feel painful and regretful about

I was also asked to give my meaning of 'Giving and Receiving Love' and what it meant to me in my personal life and experience.

I was also advised to read her website thoroughly to have a better understanding of the therapy and to know what to expect.

The setting was relaxing with soft warm lights.

Before we started, Ellen had me talking to get me into a relaxed mood. Then she explained the process to me.

I was asked to relax, make myself comfortable, close my eyes, and concentrating on her instructions, allow her to lead me. She led me on an imaginary journey to the beach and then to a house by the beach.

I was instructed to recall incidences which hurt me most, and to allow my unpleasant feelings to surface. She asked me questions to which I was supposed to answer either 'yes' or 'no' spontaneously, based on my feelings at that time. I was not to say 'maybe' or to ponder over what I wanted to say.

At times, I found difficulty in trying to allow my unpleasant feelings to surface. I wasn't sure if it was due to the fact that I had suppressed my feelings so well, or I refused to acknowledge those feelings, or because I had been able to 'let go' of the anger. Though I finally managed to, the feelings had not been as intense as what I had previously felt. And when Ellen asked if I could let the feelings go, it had promptly disappeared.

I was told to vocalise whatever was in my mind as if in retort to the offending remarks then. Then, to put myself in the other person's place and try to justify his/her behaviour/remarks from that person's perspective. I am aware that everybody is different, with different attitudes and behaviour, and that sometimes, for some people, changes cannot be enforced, that we have to accept them as they are. We have to understand that sometimes people do have good intentions but are either not sensitive to others' feelings or unaware of the impact their actions/words have on others. Whatever it is, I do think they are pitiful because they lack a sense of awareness.

Finally, I was led into forgiving. This forgiveness has to come from within, from deep down, and only then can we be free and the healing process start naturally.

It was the first time I had attended a healing session of this nature, and I wasn't very sure of what to expect. It was not as easy as it seemed as it bordered on the subconsciousness of the now and the actual happenings of the past, and the past kept wanting to get in the way.

I had been fully aware throughout the session and was fully awake with my eyes closed, though during the long bus journey home, I kept dozing off and had a hard time trying to stay awake.

Ellen's healing transformations therapy does not end with the session. In fact, that session was just the beginning of the healing process. I should not be surprised if there were some changes to my body both emotionally and physically as the healing process continues. If strong emotions arise, I was to allow them to surface and not to disperse them, distract myself or suppress them. Just stop, breathe and be present and the emotions will come and go.