My "bucket" list

My son borrowed this movie, "The Bucket List", a few days ago. It's a very interesting movie, and it is about 2 men with cancer, a poor man and a very rich man, who met in the hospital, owned by the rich man. They made a wish list of things they wanted to accomplish before they 'kick the bucket'. They spent the last days of their lives together doing all kinds of things and visiting places. The poor man was company for the rich and the rich man paid picked up all the tabs. What a neat arrangement.

I have my own list too, but it is more a 'to do list' and very different from 'the bucket list'. I have another list too, my wish list, and this will probably consists of things or events which are out of my control, but will be nice if some of the items listed could be achieved. As days passed, I will most likely be updating both lists.

I hope to be able to complete all the items in my 'to do list' before I kick the bucket.

1. Plan my funeral - just started and checking on stuff
2. Write my will - near completion, waiting for certain stuff
3. Clear out all the junk - a mammoth task which I have already started

Item 3 is so daunting and so time-consuming. For some stuff, it is clear-cut whether I want to keep or throw, but for some others, its like to throw or not to throw, that's when I have to use the deciding factor, i.e. will my family or anyone else still need this when I am not around?

4. Write letters to my kids (borrowed idea) - not started yet

I have other items in mind but I am not committing them to print yet as it will all depend on my time and energy level.

The future is so uncertain and I don't know how much time I have left, or rather I don't know exactly know when I will be going. I survived chemo and my cancer is under control, but I have this risk of losing consciousness, keeling over and maybe cracking my head and maybe not coming out of it. It will be so ironic and pathetic to be done in like that after what I have gone through.

Anyway, I don't know when it will happen or if it will ever happen, but I am not worrying about that. If I am going to let myself be bothered by that, I will have to wear a safety helmet and live in a padded room and have someone watching over me all the time. No, I love my freedom, and I have my bucket list to see to and that's going to keep me busy for some time to come.