My apologies

I apologise for causing undue stress and worry to family and friends about my last posting on my health.

I had a talk with the AM yesterday, asking him about the lumps and the aches.

He explained that he is clearing my liver. The chemo had shriveled my lymphatics so it is already not performing at optimum. He said I must have taken some cold or sour stuff that aggravated the situation by causing them to choke up, and the chokages appeared as lumps.

As for the aches, it is nothing unusual as the lumps and 'wind' pressed on the nerves, it will caused pain.

I am no expert on the anatomy, but I got a gist of what he was explaining to me.

He assured me that there was nothing to worry about as he would take care of all that. All I need to do was be obedient and watch what I eat. For the cold stuff, I admit that I have taken a lot of ice cream lately and the sour stuff could be the enzyme that I was also taking.

Dare I take him at his words for it? I do.

After fighting cancer for more than 3 years and experiencing a relapse, all those lumps and aches and pains became all too familiar. To the oncos and cancer survivors, it can only mean one thing - relapse. I had actually felt fine, other than being tired and my cancer market was still below normal.

When 1 new lump appeared on Wednesday, I had my doubts and thought that the AM was not being frank with me when I asked about the lumps a week ago.

Strangely, the thought of relapse did not bring on fear. Instead it was one of frustrations and disbelief.

I practically had an arsenal fighting my cancer, i.e. my faith, ayurvedic herbal medicine, Carnivora, Chakra healing, exercise, etc. So, what went wrong? Is it lack of rest/sleep, emotions, diet?

I didn't have time to dwell on that. I stopped my one cup a day coffee immediately, and emailed Carnivora to replenish my Graviola capsules. I had also been planning to engage the help of my chakra adjustment buddies.

After the AM's explanation and assurance, I guessed I had reacted too fast. I supposed after what I have been through and seeing what happened to others, I learnt that taking proactive measures and fighting is probably the best way out. I am aware that sometimes we win and sometimes we lose, but it's enough to know a darned good fight was fought. However, I do admit that I am exhausted by the long drawn-out battle, which never seemed to end.